the drugs make it.

every night i spend lost in thought is for you to blame. i don't want to have to fade away from whats real. this never seemed to feel this real until i noticed something change, change about myself. you know love. i smile more with you in thought. laying there, under the stars, i can feel you looking back at me.

never has the thought of tomorrow been so pleasant. never did i think i could wake up with a smile on my face. but like all good things, some must fade. the shade is thickening on my horizon dear. i can still feel them in my system. the drugs that draw me to another time, another place. where everything is slowed down. sluggishly i gather myself, and i hope for that sun to brighten my days. someone will take my hand and help me through this. love, will you guide me? i cant say that it will be easy. im not as wonderful as they say. maybe we are foolish to even think. to think life would lead us to the right thing, to give us hope.... finally. finally a chance to smile. to be happy. to finally be on top of the world.

if only i didn't need such false thoughts to keep me here. smiling. i see you looking to perfect, sitting on the counter. your cover is still tightly sealed. i haven't been greedy today baby, i haven't indulged myself in you. not yet. i been to bad love. i use you up way to fast, if only you didnt make me feel so good. without you here, im different. slowly i begin to open you, holding you so tight, the perfect grip around you. slowly opening you, listening to your words, my words. taking one at a time, like i said baby, im not greedy. i just loose count.

my eyes are feeling swollen, a warmth has engulfed my body, and you love, your rushing threw-out me. my thoughts twist and turn, im on the slowest roller coaster ever. yet this is the thrill of a life time. im unsure of what i just did, but i wont hesitate baby, your here, holding my hand. if i ever need you, i just reach out, and help myself to a little more of your love. how sweet you always are, giving pieces of you away to me.

dont forget baby, im waiting for you, im always waiting for you. never has anything made me as happy as you. your just a little harder to control then my addiction for diet coke. but you both go pretty smoothly together. dont distance yourself from me, it didnt take long for me to realize it, but i need you dearly.