silent dreams

its another evening, but this one stands out from the others, finally i saw you there, you were standing so seductive - your body engulfed me. i didn't want to pull a way, but there was so may people around, i didn't think we should continue. sitting on top of you hearing you tell me its ok, it felt so natural, soon the people began to fade, it was only me and you. the stars seemed to sing your name, they would shimmer to your aura. never has life felt so compete till the winds sang your name. i can picture it, a field, me and you, the sounds of the wild life rummaging threw the brush, its always so peaceful with you in thought. i loved to dance, dance in the sound of the wind, the wind signing your song. that song stood for power, for pain, for love, for loyalty, but most of all it sang for one's own being. it made my heart feel whole, finally to feel whole, its been something i been searching for way before i knew what certain things meant. its a gift to me, a gift that only some one dear would give me, you became my drug to life, you became my inspiration. you became the best part of me. the part that i never knew how to grasp. if only it wasn't a world i only spent my dreams in, maybe then i could truly redesign my destiny. i see you, me in the far distance i was standing in our home, you know, the one we spoke of my dear, the one by the beach, with the forest surrounding the perimeter of our house, but that's when we aren't traveling, this once is were we would spend all our time, the RV cause we love to travel, 'setting my alarm clock for and hour and a half after we pass out, just so i can wake up to watch you sleep, drive, drive down to the beach, just to cook you breakfast and make a few screwdrivers while we watch the sun rise. laying in your arms falling so deep into them remember the first time we met, but remember my love, this is for you... the wind keeps us together, in such sorrow my dear, i part with you again for another night.

you still come to me at night, telling me that things should change, change doesn't come easy for those like me, you see love, i dance around that- fact: life is simple, things come on platters with little pieces of freshly cut Romain lettuce. i wish that all problems got voided out like the extra box of condoms i told the lady she rang up twice, but then again im glad she didn't noticed, you don't know how many people can fuck you [over] with out you even noticing.

you know baby, this whole time, i knew this was what is should have done, if only my mind was loud enough. its sad i cant hear myself over you, but then again, you been here all along, you are me my dear, we are as one. its time we should see this, and accept it, and learn to come out and say it. you are what holds you back. be true to yourself.


the end.